I’ve got a headache that I’ve had on and off for a few days now. I’m so tired so much of the time. I’m disorganised. My house is a mess and getting less clean than I’d like it to be – it’s not grotty, but without action it could get there without a lot of effort … I’ve spent the last couple of days off loafing in my ever comfy PJs and while I’ve gotten up and done stuff, I’m sure I said ages ago that I was going to stop doing that…
Hang on. These things are all among my early warning signs. I’m off my game. Nothing serious yet – but now is the time to act. I’ve been going really well for ages. It’s not even my Depression that’s knocked me off my game – it’s the damn cold that I’ve been fighting. Yet this I do know. In the past relapse has often followed physical illness. The dog acts when he knows I’m not at my best. He takes advantage of weakness.
So what do I do now? Give in? Panic? Book an extra doctor’s appointment? Nope. Now is the time to reach for my WRAP – my Wellness Recovery Action Plan – something that I should probably be going over more regularly to remind myself of the daily and weekly/regular things that keep me well. In my WRAP I found that I’ve been neglecting a lot of these over the last couple of weeks and that I have gotten sloppy with a couple of my routine maintenance markers over the past couple of months. My work WRAP (my own experiment) shows me that I’ve not been sticking to my wellness goals about leaving on time and planning my day either – no wonder I’ve been feeling like I’ve been run over by a truck.
Now is the time to restart the action plans. I need to tell someone that I’ve noticed that I’m off my game and that I’m acting on it – that way they can ask me how I am going with my action plan in a couple of days to see if I need some help to get things moving again or if I’ve been able to self-start again solo (often harder than I think it’s going to be). I’ll wait to see how things progress and talk it over with my friend before I rush into moving any appointments forward. I think I’m okay if I get reorganised at this point.
So its back to setting alarms and keeping them for going to bed and lights out at night. I’ve been letting the sleep run thin.
I need to plan my meals rather than look in the fridge and hope that there’s something I feel like eating in there. And I probably need to start putting more attention towards the balance of what I eat because I don’t think I’m eating enough fresh fruit and vegetables (that’s a new strand to the plan for me).
I need to put away the things that are lying around and creating clutter.
I need to clean the house. When that goes to my list though it will read room by room and the floors will be separate. That way I can do it in parts and feel like I’m making headway when I cross things off on my list.
I need to set up a routine for maintaining my housework.
I need to set aside time for doing things that I like to do.
I need to work out how I want to prioritise a couple of things that I have going at the moment so that I can put away what I am not going to finish in the immediate future and finish off what I am doing in my ‘projects’ department.
I need to set aside time for some meditation and prayer.
I need to make sure I leave work on time.
I need to make better use of my diary and go back to keeping a list of things that I need to do to mark off and prioritise – this works well for me
I also really need to put some effort into starting to exercise and to spending more time outdoors.
If I need help with anything, I can and will ask.
I’ve been good with most of my other stuff but things involving routine, and doing things that I’m not instinctively motivated by (like exercise and cooking for anything other than guests) are difficult. It may get easier. Who knows? My goal is to find something that I enjoy in the things that I find difficult to do at some point – but not now. Now the need is to just do it.
We all fall down. We all need to know the best way to get up again too. Take the time to be prepared. I use the WRAP (http://www.mentalhealthrecovery.com/wrap/ . You can now download an old edition of this from “Recovery X-Change” http://www.recoveryxchange.org/downloads/RxChange%20WRAP%20WorkBook.pdf if you want to check it out a bit more closely). There are a number of different systems people have. The most important thing is to be ready to be ready.
All I have is a cold. It does not have to become a relapse.
Right now though it’s approaching bed time. So rather than editing anything else. I’m going to post this and head for the sack. Good night.
this was a really helpful post for me, – thanks for writing so thoroughly about what works for you!
I’m glad its helpful. All the best, Jill.